This morning I woke up with the resolve to eat well and keep the calorie count in a reasonable range. I planned on keeping a tally in my head. I had an 80 calorie greek yogurt and a banana for breakfast. For lunch I had a Chinese chicken salad. I went to Costco and did some shopping and sampling (phase 1 of my diet demise). Dinner started off well--chicken and turkey sausages. But I needed something else and I felt like I'd eaten healthy all day. So then it was pretzel sticks followed by a huge thing of popcorn and I ended it with four of those chocolate toffee Laceys that they sell at Costco. FOUR! One should be enough.
By the time I was done binging I was stuffed and felt horrible and ashamed at what I'd eaten and my lack of discipline. Not to mention I have terrible heartburn from eating so poorly.
I hopped on the scale today and I've hit 190! Ugh! I was down to 156 at one point and had stayed around 170 even with the ups and downs. This yo-yo weight loss and gain is so frustrating!
I've worked out every day this new year (except Sundays) and I didn't want to break that. So tonight at 10 pm I started watching McFarland, USA and started my Insanity workout. I was inspired as I watched those kids run! It made me workout harder. I think I even cried once or twice while I was jogging in place and watching those kids overcome their obstacles. And I couldn't help by smile and cheer when Kevin Costner yelled out, "McFarland is going to state!" I hope I'll be able to yell out the same thing, "Mackey is going to state!"
There were so many parallels in this movie. Kevin (@modernwest), if you ever happen to read this blog, you'd make a great Big Fat Diver! You're a couple years older than I am, but I could totally see it.
And so my resolve tonight, is to get rid of that junk food that gets me every night starting at 6pm. Or at least the Laceys. Sorry for the gross picture of my trashcan, but I needed to make a statement to myself (which by the way, throwing away perfectly good dessert falls just below homicide in my book. It's CRIMINAL!)
Here's to a new day tomorrow and staying on task with diet and exercise! Ten more days until dive team starts!!